I’m sitting in the hospital car park right now, and honestly… I can’t quite believe I’m even here.

The last few weeks have felt heavy, like something’s been hanging over me that I couldn’t quite put into words until now. I’m not usually someone who worries about my own health. I mean, I don’t really have the time to, do I? When you’re a mum—especially in the kind of world I live in, with so much focus on keeping the kids well and happy—it’s second nature to put yourself at the very bottom of the list. Sometimes I forget I even have a list.